Weeknotes 004
Happenings
Three consecutive weeks have been filled with sad news, and with my husband away on business trip during all three. This week has been a blur of work, cat care, exhaustion, and endless back-and-forth. Even though nothing major is happening right now, we’re still preparing for two big events in October, so there's a lot to do.
Last Thursday I received news from old friends: one of my college friend had passed away. We weren’t close friends, but we interacted quite frequently during our first year. As life went on and we moved into different study programs, we stopped talking and only occasionally interacted on social media.
Still, I grieve for her. She was a kind and beautiful friend—-and I’m not saying that only because she was beautiful. Her looks made her well-known back then, maybe across the entire campus. And then there was me, the awkward, unpopular one. I was never the pretty, outgoing type (I only became an extrovert a few years after graduating from college), so I was surprised that my late friend genuinely liked chatting with me about random, silly things.
She was funny and truly kind. Remembering those small moments made me cry without realizing it. Thank you for being a kind friend. Thank you for laughing with me. I can’t remember exactly, but I think she was the one who invited me to join art performance for our big college event back then, Pasar Seni. That will forever remain one of my best memories.
Tomorrow begins another busy work week. I don’t know how I’ll adapt, since I’m still feeling demotivated. I need to push through this lingering fatigue because I’m afraid it will affect my performance, enthusiasm, and of course my colleagues as well. I’ll reflect on this through the end of the year and try to give my best.
Will I still be working like this next year, with constant fatigue and Sunday anxiety? I don’t know. I love the job, but the risks of working in a public communications office at a popular institution do feel like a gamble every day. You never know what might come up beyond the guaranteed routine.
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Things
After skipping the treadmill for five days, I felt sore. Saturday and Sunday marked my return, and it felt great. I discovered I work out better when I’m not watching videos. Obviously because I’m not distracted. But it takes a special mood to enjoy the workout enough to go without any entertainment. Maybe I’ll switch to music next time.
I’m trying to break the habit of checking my feed (Instagram, Threads, or X) the moment I wake up. This morning I avoided all of them and went straight to my workout, starting the day with a YouTube video instead. But even then I felt uneasy watching something, so I ended up doing the whole workout without any videos. Maybe avoiding social feeds first thing will improve my focus. Who knows? (I know, but it’s still hard.)
I’ve been experimenting with Habitica for habit tracking. I don’t like overly complex apps, but I was curious whether full gamification would make me more enthusiastic. The answer: no. I’m struggling to decide what to log as daily tasks, to-dos, or positive/negative habits. I’ll just use the simplest option—maybe another app, or better yet, this Bearblog page.
That wraps up this week’s notes. I’m mixing Indonesian and English in my original post because I’m too tired to stick to just one language. But that’s fine. The language of this blog doesn’t really matter as long as I keep writing. Besides, there's always my trusty google translate.
Cheers,
Mega